Actually keeping a new years resolution.

I am soo greatful for the time I did have with my father.

For the opportunity to work for Marmot (my dream job).

My amazing friends for all their love and support

Being introduced to a new church, that I really love, thank you T.

The time I have to scrapbook, and spend time with those I love.

Bazzile cardstock at 0.49 per sheet.

I have so much to be thankful for!

Today

Today was just another day, and yet today was very different. Before it even had a chance to begin, the relationship that I risked everything for ended.
This past year has been through so much change, so much good change, so much bad change.
I really thought that I was in a space to move forward, that I had met someone that wanted the same things out of life as me... but then reality hit and we both realized that it would never work.
I just want to meet someone that loves and wants me for me... is that person out there?

Well here I am again, trying to maintain Blog...

I have never been very good at these things, but I really want to keep one so here I am making yet another effort.

My Valentines Day was actually pretty great, my friends Corey, and Joe and Thea...all made sure that I was not alone on Valentines day... I was able to go ice skating with great friends, and see an awesome show, and enjoy amazing company...

Thank you to the parties that contributed to making my V-day special :)

Can't seem to stop crying...

According to my best friend, my hair is flat, my eyes are sunken with dark circles, I can not be bothered to wear makeup and I always seem sad...

I do not seem to handling my fathers death real well, I am very sad, and there was so much left unresolved. I wish that I could have just one last time to tell him that I loved him, and how sorry I am for all the times I hurt him. I do not know where to go from here, I always thought that I would have my father in my life, and I certainly was positive that he would one day walk me down the aisle.

I can not go back on what I have done in my pass, I can only go forward. I pray that I am able to live my life and become someone that would have made my father proud.

Wedding Blues...

Last night my dear friend Amelia married the man of her dreams, I am so happy for the two of them and wish this all the happiness in the world.

I tried to keep it together, but when her father daughter dance started I was in tears.My friends were so wonderful and understanding, my intention was never to take the focus off the bride. On a happy note I caught the bouquet, I am sure my Aita was responsible for that one.

Mr and Mrs. Perkins I love you and wish you congratulations.