Not sure I can keep making lemonade...

Life just keeps giving me lemons....
I am so frustrated, and trying to keep my faith... but it is all soo hard!
This last bit of news, have been almost more then I can handle.
Please if you find this, pray for me and my family!~

time for change....

Last night was girls night out, celebrating Jen's (Feb 29th) and my (March 8th) birthdays. We along with Kim and Erica went to Helene's for the Altered Clock class. I was so excited all day trying to come up with cleaver "time sayings" . At some point mid-day I decided on the theme of "time for change"... Thank you Helene's and my friends for a wonderful night out.

Actually keeping a new years resolution.

I am soo greatful for the time I did have with my father.

For the opportunity to work for Marmot (my dream job).

My amazing friends for all their love and support

Being introduced to a new church, that I really love, thank you T.

The time I have to scrapbook, and spend time with those I love.

Bazzile cardstock at 0.49 per sheet.

I have so much to be thankful for!

Today

Today was just another day, and yet today was very different. Before it even had a chance to begin, the relationship that I risked everything for ended.
This past year has been through so much change, so much good change, so much bad change.
I really thought that I was in a space to move forward, that I had met someone that wanted the same things out of life as me... but then reality hit and we both realized that it would never work.
I just want to meet someone that loves and wants me for me... is that person out there?

Well here I am again, trying to maintain Blog...

I have never been very good at these things, but I really want to keep one so here I am making yet another effort.

My Valentines Day was actually pretty great, my friends Corey, and Joe and Thea...all made sure that I was not alone on Valentines day... I was able to go ice skating with great friends, and see an awesome show, and enjoy amazing company...

Thank you to the parties that contributed to making my V-day special :)

Can't seem to stop crying...

According to my best friend, my hair is flat, my eyes are sunken with dark circles, I can not be bothered to wear makeup and I always seem sad...

I do not seem to handling my fathers death real well, I am very sad, and there was so much left unresolved. I wish that I could have just one last time to tell him that I loved him, and how sorry I am for all the times I hurt him. I do not know where to go from here, I always thought that I would have my father in my life, and I certainly was positive that he would one day walk me down the aisle.

I can not go back on what I have done in my pass, I can only go forward. I pray that I am able to live my life and become someone that would have made my father proud.

Wedding Blues...

Last night my dear friend Amelia married the man of her dreams, I am so happy for the two of them and wish this all the happiness in the world.

I tried to keep it together, but when her father daughter dance started I was in tears.My friends were so wonderful and understanding, my intention was never to take the focus off the bride. On a happy note I caught the bouquet, I am sure my Aita was responsible for that one.

Mr and Mrs. Perkins I love you and wish you congratulations.